Wednesday, September 17, 2008

bad day Sept. 16

So- yesterday was a really bad day. I mean- our house has been for sale for a week... we've known we were going to sell since July?  No surprises.  Yesterday- it just seemed to 'hit!' but what's weird is- it was almost an uncontrollable 'hit'? Just an uncontrollable sadness.

I felt as though [going to sound real dark and poetic  here] but I honestly felt as though I had the weight of a thousand sad souls weighing me down yesterday. I was putting weeds/brush in the woods, cleaning up around the barn, just being outside. Every time i looked back to the house- I was just over come by sadness! I would cry and it was just a sad day. More so though- my chest felt super heavy.  The same heavy feeling I use to get when every I had to go up to the 3rd floor- when we first moved here.  The weight of a thousand sad souls-  the best way to describe it.

So- [the point] last night- we were all out shooting some shots on Anna, while she was dressed to be a goalie, we took some photos.  I was snapping away-- consecutive photos-  so the lens is clean in all the others...  Straight away- while the photos are being uploaded- we spot this one right away.  That's one of the biggest orbs that have ever shown up in a photo here.  [there is even an orb in one of our real estate listing photos- the realtor took! on realtor.com]  However- seeing that photo- and it being near the wind chime that will sing for me on the calmest of days-- only makes me think. The thing seems massive compared to other things we've seen in past photos-- it looks like it's carrying the weight and sadness of a thousand lost souls...

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